I thought that you may, or may not, find it interesting to read this, as this is what's on my Facebook page, but it feels out of place there as Facebook is pretty superficial and this is "deep" - well, for me anyway. I don't do "touchy-feely" very well. Have a read, see what you think.
So, if you read my blog you will find out what I do in the little spare time that I have.
But what defines me as a person? Is it my upbringing, my education and my family and relationships? Is it the work I do, my interests & hobbies and the people I choose to spend time with? Perhaps it's my past, my present or my future. I'm not sure.
What I do know is that I don't know myself as well as I thought I did. Let me explain.
Three years ago I resigned from TPG, the wonderful company I had worked at for almost 7 years to see what more I could do, what further skills I was capable of acquiring, if I had more to offer than I realised I had and if I could still sell. Having been in sales for many years, then giving up all of my clients slowly but surely gave me withdrawl symptoms; but there was no time for me to manage a full branch of consultants and hold onto my clients as well, never mind bring in new ones.
So I started consulting at Thomas International, also a great company; realised I could do all I'd hoped I could & had not lost my skills while managing, but had fine-tuned them. Nice feeling? Not really as I wanted to be somewhere else; back in the recruitment industry, but more specifically at TPG.
I started back at TPG eight months after I'd left. What a good move! As the Training Manager I had challenge upon challenge and I loved my job. I was so glad not to be managing a team again as I felt the touchy-feely side was so not me. I let five - not one; five opportunities pass by me with a smile. Manage a branch again? No thanks!
As things inevitably do, they changed and an opportunity was presented to me that I didn't expect, wasn't sure I wanted, but couldn't really refuse for a number of reasons. I've taken over management of TPG's Midrand branch, and am I enjoying it? Hell, yes! I didn't want this, I didn't ask for it and I didn't imagine I'd be doing this ever again. Yes, it has its' ups and downs, yes I'm back on medication to control my anxiety attacks, yes I am writing this note at 3:54am as I couldn't sleep and have been awake since 1am, but am I where I want to be? Absolutely.
What's the moral of the story? Sometimes you just have no idea what you really want as you're not being honest with yourself about who you are and what you get off on and the things that make you tick.
Oh, another thing, if you're reading this and smirking? Get the hell off my page and de-friend yourself. Enough mushy stuff for one day. Over & out.
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